STILL VALUABLE

I used to over explain. By used to.. I mean just last week.

“Let me explain to you why I was just ten minutes late..”

“Let me explain to you why I am tired..”

“Let me explain to you why life is hard”

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I’ve gone through a lot of crisis moments the last two years opening up a venue and dealing with construction. Man, construction is stressful. I’ve acted in ways I would never want to admit. I’ve wanted revenge on people who have made it hard for me. I have wanted to feel seen in my struggle and pain. I have tried over explaining (proving) and begging people to help me get out of messes that I’ve been in. None of which they are responsible for. I have been obsessive and want to talk about the ins and outs of what I have been through.

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I’m not writing this now because I’m wanting someone to be sad for me or an attempt to explain. I’m posting this now because shame isn’t going to keep me. I’m not defined by those moments of losing my form.Those moments I am really not proud of.

I’m still me. Valuable. Creative. Brave. Audacious. Determined me.

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Don’t let yesterday or last weeks actions tell you that you are something you are not. Shame says should have and wants to hold you back from tomorrow. Forgiveness and grace sounds more like.. I am still valuable and tomorrow is a new day.

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Forgive yourself and walk on